tis ees der first tym tat im bloggin twice in a dae. n it`s lyke i normali blog bout once a wk. but der reason y i blogged so much todae ees bcuz. todae ees a veri touchin dae. its veri meaningful to me. der first post was bout GOD. which ees of cuz veri touchin. n der next post.. ees bout der certain sumone in my life. as im shy.. im goin to sae his name once onli kaes. n he`s seryang(: goh seryang(: i feel veri blessed tat my bf ees not anibodeh else but him.
its lyke.. i called him soon after i published der earlier post. n i was so sad n disturbed by der fact tat everiting`s turnin grey. n dere`s no more ryte n wrong.
at first he did not answer my call. n i was lyke... cryin. cuz i wanted to tok to sumbodeh veri much. i nided sumone to listen to my problems. n i wanted him to b tat sumone.
so i laid on bed n was tynkin bout der world bcumin grey. den he suddenly called me. he first apologised fer not pickin up der call. he shld haf thirty sumting missed calls. den he noticed i was quiet. so he ask.. "wads wrong"

n i juz asked him.
"if sumdae nobody wants me animore,wil eeu stil wan me? if sumdae nobody lurfs me animore,wil eeu stil lurf me? if sumdae der world turns grey..wil eeu stil stay by my side.."

n his reply touched me completely.

"if nobody wans eeu,i wil tek eeu in my arms.
if nobody lurfs eeu,i wil b der one who lurfs eeu.
if der colours start to fade,i wil paint dem again.
if eeu r scared,i wil hold eeu tite.
if eeu cry,i'l wipe awae ur tears.
if eeu r too tired to carry on walkin,i'l carry eeu.
i lurf eeu."

n i was lyke so touched. i nvr knew sumbodeh cld care fer me so much. n i knew it was true. everiting came frm der bottom of his hart. it makes me feel so secured.
n den he saed.

"do eeu stil rmb our lurf written in der stars? our promise? i wil kip to tat promise ferever. i wil not let anione hurt eeu. eeu noe why? bcuz im sure i wil lurf eeu ferever. der onli person i wan to grow old wif ees eeu."

todae. ees our first yr.
it juz reminds me of how amazin tis guy was. n how much he meant to me.

i lurf der wae he lurfs me and der wae he makes me see.. tat we were meant to b.

n on our first yr.. i uz wan to dedicate him sumting on tis post.
tat ees..
get ready fer sum mushy stuff.

*if eeu live to b a hundred yrs old,i wan to b a hundred yrs minus one dae,
so i wil nvr haf to live a dae without eeu.*

we wil walk thru life togeder,handinhand.
tats how much i lurf eeu~

HAPPY VALENTINE`S.
LOVE IS IN DER AIR(:

lovedd.<3
;8:20 AM.x

EXCUSE ME. im backk. i guess no one noes. wel,im gonna make everione noe.
common tests cumin eeu noe. so haf to lyke refrain frm com. bsides i haf com headache syndrome.
actuali todae wanted to blog bout nuthin else but GOD.
cuz its lyke. had a tok wif a matured christian. toked to him wif amelia. den its lyke he reali points up a lot of GOD STUFF to us. kaes lahhs. its a tcher. xD
its lyke.. i asked him wad wld happen in a relationshp between a christian n non`christian. he juz saes sumting tat totally amazed me. GOD HAS A PLAN FER EEU. HE SAVES DER RYTE ONE FER EEU IN TYM TO CUM. wow. PRAISETHELORD. how enlightenin.n i was lyke. im glad certain sumone ees a devoted CHRISTIAN.
den its lyke. he toked bout der world bcumin grey. n i totally agreed on it. im not pointin at anione here cuz everione`s nicee to me. but im pointin it to sumone at der end of der post. WATCH OUT. its lyke he saed in tis world when tings r grey,we shld strive even more to c der black n white areas. he told me tat when everibodeh`s failin to c wads in front of dem,we shld tek up der bible,listen to GOD. HE WILL SHOW US THE WAY.
indeed dere r many grey areas in modern day world. but GOD WILL PULL ME THRU. N I BLIF HE WIL PULL AL DER OTHERS WHO FOLLOW HIM THRU TOO.
den he toked bout us helpin one anoder n encouragin each oder. i tynk tat der world`s mainly nice. but eeu cant afford to b nice to everibodeh.
n now`s when im goin to point at sumbodeh.
ppl who r bein backstabbed do not tok bout it. ppl who r backstabbin harp bout it. n if eeu choose to tok bout it in front of so many ppl. it onli goes to prove sumting,eeu r der backstabber. EEU NOE WHO EEU R. if eeu wan power,tek it. nobodeh`s goin to compete wif eeu. nobodeh wans to.
i guess im abit rude. but im angry.tat`s a fact. n i cant tek it down. nid to sae it out sumwher. its not as if eeu go ard tellin ppl bout stuff n dey blif it den eeu tynk OH WOW. i tynk tat onli shows tat eeu r tryin too hard.dun gif me tat dao attitude when i try to tok to eeu. its a fact tat i tried to tok to eeu. eeu dun appreciate it. since eeu lyke gifin me tat dao expression so much,go ahead. im not goin to care.look,im not exactly veri happy bout tis.eeu can do wad eeu wan. eeu can rise up in position. but i tynk eeu r fake.

GOSHGOSHGOSH. sorry ppl. i dun lyke tat red part a little bit at al. but suppressin it too long eesnt gudd. sorry.

n OH MY. VALENTINE`S CUMIN. WOWWOWWEE.(:

lovedd.<3
;6:13 AM.x

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AIYAIYAI.
ytd was nice tho i onli blogged it todae(: im slow,as eeu c. XD
ytd.. hmm.. was nice n not nice.. but quite nice. OHDEAR,wad m i tokin bout.
i den realised im a farnee gerl.
i pon sku but i stil wore sku u to town. CRAZY. was quite farnn xcept tat newtown guys part. saw mani nh ppl. n can eeu blif it. i saw WEIJIAN N WEICONG in town. nobodeh seemed to recognise dem. oh wells,im too observant. at least tat`s wad emy alwaes saes bout me.
went town n saw many many nhppl. din reali go sae hi. cuz al of dem arent veri close wif me. iIM SHY. n AWWW. i din buy aniting. but amel din buy aniting too. it was yayi who spent hundred over. n emy.. i forgotton.
din tek neos. cuz of sum special reason. n oso bcuz veri crowded.
receivedd calls frm arh`jo n kristyn.
arh`jo called me to tel me bout she spottin certain sumone. n askedd me wher i m. she muz haf had a great tym wif claire.but din c her thruout.
den kristyn called to ask me wher i saw der superstars. she din c dem. n she tot i was bluffin her. ITS TRUE. i reali saw dem. can ask amel n emy(:
den we saw cheryl dearie n joy. we were chasin after der superstars den emy bumped into cheryl n practicali pulled her bra down. OHGOSH. n dear cheryl went screamin WO DE BRA!!!! how embarrasedd can one get. xD. emy was too excited.
n emy was shoutin DERRICK N WEIJIAN!! den im lyke.. psst. derrick n weijian r der same person. its weijian n weichong. XD. n amel was walkin bhind slowly. she`s not interested. im not interested too. i dun watch superstars alot. but i juz wanted to prove to emy tat i reali saw dem(:
n oso.. i dropped my pendant. it was my sis`s. she wld kill me. so i as busily lookin fer it n AMEL FOUND IT. n eeu noe wad. I KISSED HER ON DER STREETS. i din noe if anibodeh else saw. but i was so happy tat i juz pecked her cheeks. she was shocked n so was emy. but it was farn. amel has nice cheeks(: amel ees chio. amel rawks. i lurf amel.

yayi bought quiksilver shirt fer her bf. n bits n pieces ring fer valentines. n OOHMYGOSH. yayi ees SEXY. i cld haf drooled. she was wearin a plunge-down cat sleeve top. n it reali plunged. she has beeg *TOOT*s. cheryl wil faint if she saw. n she wore hipster jeans. n dey r reali hipster. TRUST ME. sum gerl even tapped her n told her to pull up her jeans cuz dey were slippin down. she has nice *TOOT*s too. if i was her bf,i wld haf gone GOOGOOGAGA. on der other hand,amel,emy n me were in sku u(: emy din get a chance to show off her shoes(: but she showed dem off to me alady. DEY R NICE. xuan has a pair too n she kips changin der colour. oh yeah.. tokin bout xuan. she met us after sku. but she din go town. she wanted to do DA SHAO CHU. how sweet she ees(:
so.. it was quite farn. n i met up wif certain sumone after i left der gerls.
was tekin train bac to clementi when der train got sum problem n stopped at yishun.
blif me ppl,i haf nvr been to yishun.
so went north point to shop.took neo n ate burger king. i had a cravin fer beef. mayb due to wad emy told me XD. den went home.
it was cold n tat certain sumone put his shirt on me. *kiss fer tat*.. i told der auntie(: i haf a wonderful guy juz ryte bside me..(: but wads even wonderful ees der guy up dere(:
GOD.
i feel so blessed to haf christian frens ard me.. so dey wil catch me n pull me back whenever i wanted to backslide. thanxs to deir pullin.. i got bac on der ryte track. went to deir bloggs ealier . GOD HAS MADE SUCH DIFFERENCES IN THEIR LIFES. bless dem(:
n wan to comment on jj.
dear jj,altho eeu r sorta new christian. but its amazing how well ur relationship ees wif GOD. kip up der gudd work alryte(:
n oso dear jo.
do eeu noe ur post on der.. wad
a simple i lurf eeu frm above was wad made my tear dropped.
tat touched me so much.. i cried too. GOD LURFS HIS CHILDREN VERI MUCH INDEED. jo,God lurfs eeu alot. how blessed eeu r(:
it dawned on me.. tat i can get back to GOD. i rmb sarah tellin me bout DRY PERIODS. i dun exactly noe wad it means. but i tynk it meant not communicatin wif God? i dno XD.
but.. i noe GOD lurfs me. n if i wan to get back to God,i haf to do it myself. mayb a little support frm my frens? *^^*

cny cumin so i used red.

lovedd.<3
;12:24 AM.x

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AIYAIYAI.
omg. ytd was a nice nice dae. ees todae gonna b nice too? i dno.
got many tings to tok bout.,

`BAND.
mich,im so sorry fer not cumin band kaes.. if eeu do cum to my blog. hope eeu wil accept der apology. had a long tok wif eeu ytd. n.. i noe its difficult fer eeu too. but glad tat eeu`ve been so strong. cuz GOD LIVES IN EEU. so.. go der xtra mile to get perc united again yep? i blif tat eeu can. dun gif up. c.. eeu haf alady toked me into goin back band. i blif eeu can do der same to der oders too. eeu did great. (:
but. now.. im startin to worry. BEN!! omg. tat brat. hope he doesnt recognise me. n i miss band peeps a lot. but dey dun seem to miss me. =( xcept amelia n josie. aww.. i feel so unloved.
so ppl noe wad to do on feb25th yeah? *grins.

`YTD.
heeha i SIMPLY LURF YTD. erms. i sae tat particular gerl. sorry tat i din sae hi,alryte. IM SHY. i'l sae it der next tym i c eeu(: den... went to contact lens shop. went to bubble tea shop. i kip tokin wif der auntie. den she sae men cannot b trusted. I DUN TYNK SO. cuz i haf a wonderful man bside me.(: den me n emy were SUPER HIGH YTD. we kept luffin. regardless of wad. we went shoppin. n MYDEAR,she bought alot of tings. n she bought sumting fer me too(: i din xpect tat. serious. THANKEEU. den we went s&k n we bought der same tings. wun tel eeu wad. SURPRISE. den we went beeg bksp. laughin over sum fengshui n detox tinggy. den we went k`shoppin. luffin over der clothes. OHDEAR. my jaw cld haf broke.
one veri farnee ting ees tat.. emy bought green apple ice blended. den she drink a few mouthfuls. den she put it on top of a bin. den she walk walk to buy anoder bubble tea. den she sae she full so she wanted to throw. when we went back to der bin. der ice blended was gone so i shouted SUMBODEH STOLE UR BUBBLE TEA. den she start luffin,.chokin n spittin out pearls. n SHE WIPED DEM ON ME. HOW GROSS CAN SUMBODEH GET.aniwaes,emy ees a nicee person(:
n todae in sku. i was RED, frm laughin too much. wendy,amber,jessie n ruth kept imitatin me n a certain sumone. holdin hands n callin dahlink n honey. AIYAIYAI.
den cheryl oso. she went to poke sumwher tat she wasnt supposed to touch n went SO BEEG. im lyke EMBARRASED. hers eesnt small either. xD.

now tings r goin on smoothly.. n i hope tat everiting wil b fine frm now on.

//JO,
sorry bout goin out tingy. hope eeu haf a great tym wif claire(:

//JEMIMAH.
ees tat how to spell ur name?? im an IT BOBO.

n tokin bout al tis.. i wan to tok bout sumting else too..
`GOD.
i hadnt been tokin to God fer a long tym... after i went jo,sarah,emy n jj`s blog.. i suddenly felt veri guilty. God toked to dem.. God wanted to tok to me too.. but i din let Him.. i din let Him at all... God lurfs everi single child of His... He lurfs me.. but.. i din lurf him back der same way. al der while,.. i was busy wif work.. busy wif frens. n i din tok to Him.. i din let Him into my heart.. He wanted to noe how i was doin.. He wanted to tok to me.. but i juz shut der door in front of Him.. refusin to let Him in.. how cld i.. i alwaes tot i was alone.. tat God din lurf me animore.. tat i wasnt fit to tok to God animore.. but God had alwaes been bside me.... im so sorry.....

lovedd.<3
;6:07 PM.x

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HEEHA!! xD
do pepps miss me? keke,todae ees a thurs. how`s band? waitin fer amel,josie n angella etc to tel me bout deir day in band(:
AIYAIYAI. juz wanna tel der band ppl tat i miss dem loadds. n i miss basey. i miss al der instrus. i miss tantan. but so sorry tat me n gen did not turn up... i wonder if i wil b ever turnin up.....

miao ees alwaes not in band. bsides,so many oder ppl r CCA-less. i nvr regretted joinin band.. but,tings do change. i haf not only mentioned it once tho. it`s der problem of who n not why.
"chant n jubilo", "prisoner of rings" r nice songs... i stil rmb der first instrument i played-bells. in quiet moments. tat was der happiest tym ever. no rivalry,no stress,no unhappiness,no aniting.......

apologies to junior benedict.im sorry tat eeu haf such an irresponsible senior. n tat eeu dun c me in band. JIAYOUS!JUNIOR. get a gold wif honours fer me,yep?

tho i spent a solid two yrs in band,went thru so much stuff. der r many tings i haf not done: drumset,crash,cymbals,clean der insrtuments...

two yrs ago,on tis dae, i lurfed band. two yrs later,on tis dae,i cannot say der same........

lovedd.<3
;5:37 AM.x

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it's been so long since i blogged. I think dere's sumthing rong wif my brain. I get headaches when i look at der com. WEIRD (:

//particular ferl
ees tat really eeu?

sku has been reasonably gudd tese days but i din go sku on fri. ta-da. headache again. mus b missin out loadds of work.havben even coleect eng & chem bks.cham liao.

//ode san
KAK KAK ! AW !, I MISS EEU. DID YOU C WAD STATE OUR INSTRUSR? XD


band.band and band. perc only got one junior tis yr.benedict soh.tat brat.7452.known him fer 4 yrs le.now he cumin into NHSB mus c him fer at least 2 more years. GOD BLESS>
i dun lyke band anymore.
HMPH
dere's only snare drum n bass drum to choose frm in both songs.
ARGH. i cant handle drums at all !!!

wad-the-gong ! how can dey do tis to me n gen. drums r horrible n mallots r terrible. I shld juz stick to der triangle (: n oh-my-chimes. i haf nvr touched drums bfer.so i guess its nono fer me =(

lovedd.<3
;4:29 AM.x

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HEYHEYS(:
4thjan'o6

we had MATHS LESSON.
der rules tat der tcher set r real scary.. hope tat i dun break ani rule! hope jojo can cope bahhs. haha..den oso start to worry bout AEmaths. my maths has been alwaes poor. sumbodeh tutor me can? REALI REALI hope i can understand der sub!!

den we had BIO lesson.
spent a great deal of tym changin seats. but mrs ng nvr change me!! im sittin bside amelia n ruth. den in front of me ees joy. n bside her ees cheryl? bhind ees hongling? diagonal ees yuhui. i hope i get der names ryte XD.

and we had HISTORY lesson.
went to 3o2. can nvr imagine how scary it was. din noe many ppl. juz shook hands wif liting n b frens(: den i tynk der whole class ees quite nice. only tat quite sadden by tis particular gerl n gang. oso dun wan sae who bahhs... i pass by her.. den dey gif me dose dao xpression... mayb dere ees real misunderstandin bahhs... juz hope tat can get along wif dem. cuz.... it boders me abit. GOD BLESS.

den we had MALAY.
veri veri farnee.

n made sum new frens. cant spell deir name.
got ellise,melissa who r in der same code as me(:
den.. stefanie n sheryl. noticeboard tingy(:
n tokedd to yanbin,amber n ruth.
dey r quite nice(: but sorry if i get ur names wrong..

n we had BANDBANDBAND.
i missed. slacked ard wif famers.gen.sasa n juniors(: had so much farn tat i cld not stop luffin. but i guess we were quite noisy XD.

den had sum presents todae.
a flower frm VSband ppl.
but it was badaly squashed by farmers.
n oso sum gummies n sweets in a cute little stocking by him.

I AM HAPPY((:

-ena

lovedd.<3
;4:37 AM.x

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AIYAIYAI. i dun lyke YELLOW. xd.
keke... HELO EVERIONE. TAG MORE. I LURF C'IN UR TAGS(:
`junjie. i dun understand wad cum bac means. ees it eeu tag wrong board?
`jingru. of cuz got ur name. lurf eeu so much nehs.
`shu xian arh. miss eeu. catch up sumday yep.
`angella. EEU R SO CRAZY BOUT BAND.
`sheryl. tat was a NICE tag.
`bina. muz noe eeu more!!
`mich. eeu finali found my blogg. keke.(:
`tingmin. SORRY. lynk again. i wil tek care of kristyn. XD.
`sarah. touched by wad eeu saed. but it's too hard fer me.
`sumbodeh. christmas ees no fun without eeu. (:ilu.
`leihoi. BOO HOO. I MISS EEU.

din blog fer quite sumtym den c many tags. lurf it. ppl r nice to me. so i'l b extra extra nice to dem too kaes(:

first day of sku'3rdjano6
I DUN WAN GO SKU.
cant wake up. lol. but saw many frens(: nice.
der rapport buildin games quite NICE huh.. der balloons hurt. XD. but it was fun. den sumguy fainted.. he looked reali unwell.. scared me. ZHU NI ZAO RI KANG FU!! GET WELL SOON.
den went down fer lunch. me.amel.emy.n kristyn.
den we sae SARAH N XUAN. xuan so SHUAI!! keke..
den afta sku we went ginza. went eat lunch. wasnt fun. cuz we spent bout half an hour.. walkin ard n cumin in n out of shops n dcidin wad to eat. al xuan`s fault. DUN EAT PRAWNS. den kristyn`s fault. DUN EAT VEGGIES. den emy`s fault. TOO MUCH MONEY. den my fault. cuz i left hander.. den amel cant get her food. SORRY AMEL.
den we went central. it was a LONG LONG walk.
collected sum fotos.(: den took bus wif xuan home. we saw amel in her bus too. DESTINY. FATE. WOW.

first dae of sku wasnt bad. but din make ani new frens tho. AWWW. im too shy XD. start to miss EVERIBODEH CLOSE TO ME.
2o5 frens..
saw lifeng cut her hair. SO CHIO. den saw xuan buy new uni n cut hair. n new specs. SO CHIO. den saw ivy chasin rosie. HAHA. miss al of eeu. n HAPPY BURFDAE LIJIE!!
den ppl in band.. i saw liqiang n junjie in long pants.. ahaha. keke. not bad. hope band starts soon.
hope tat everibodeh ard me can adapt to deir new classes n haf a lovely yr ahead of dem(:
n as fer der change in seatin arrangement.. i quite scared.. scared no frens sit ard me.. AIYAIYAI. but amel n emy sae lyke tat can concentrate more on studies.. *><* nvm.
GOD HAS A PLAN FER ME. jiayous bah(:

-ena

lovedd.<3
;3:16 AM.x

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